Another week, another month. I knew April was going to fly by, considering moving was going to be pretty time consuming. It’s crazy to think we’ve been here for three weeks already! At the time of writing, we still have a handful of boxes left to unpack. R and I have been more focused on relaxing this week, what with all the traveling we’ve been doing every weekend.
This weekend we’re hoping to explore the city a little bit. I’m not sure if we will go directly into the center, or just browse around the outskirts (where we are). I mean, there’s a mall down the road from us, and I still don’t know half the stores that are in there. That’s probably a good thing…
I included the ramblings part in the title because I’ve been thinking about a lot this past week.
This week was very low-key, so being grateful wasn’t exactly on my mind a lot. That sounds bad, but I’ve honestly been in a funk since moving. It’s gone up and down, but I have to admit to feeling useless without a job. So many of us are defined by what we do, and I don’t necessarily think that’s a good thing. I never felt that connected to a job, but the simple distinction between being employed and unemployed is enough for me.
It’s kind of funny, because R doesn’t care at all. He’s being really supportive, which amazes me. I’m over here freaking out about not making any money, and he’s sitting there saying we’re not desperate for it, so what does it matter? (And this is why I insisted on a probably larger-than-necessary emergency fund.)
It matters in a personal sense. I think we all like to know we are worth something, and receiving a paycheck is validation in some sense. Someone is paying us to provide value. Right now, I don’t feel like I have any. I know I put myself in this position with the move, I just didn’t think I would feel this way after all was said and done.
Where to go from here
I know it’s silly and it will pass. I’m currently at a crossroads, where I want to get my toes wet with freelancing, but feel like I should look for an actual job. Obviously, as many of you know, freelancing isn’t steady, and for someone who has no client base to start with, it could be many months before I’m bringing in what I used to. While I have enough saved up to last many months, and we’re still working on lowering our expenses (utilities, insurance), I’m craving a little “stability.” In quotes, because nothing is certain with jobs.
That said, I’m also grateful for the bloggers that have reached out to me. I plan on brainstorming some ideas for guest posts, and trying to put myself out there. I could probably use a blogging mentor, but I’m not entirely sure where to get one.
In any case, people are always saying to just ask. What a simple concept. You need a favor? Just ask. I’ve always struggled with this, though. As a shy, introverted person, I often feel like I’m bothering someone if I send them an unsolicited email. Yet, I love getting emails from fellow bloggers!
Back to being grateful
I try to stick to a hopeful tone in these posts, but I didn’t really feel like dividing them, so back to being grateful we go!
- I’m glad that we had a really relaxing weekend last week. We didn’t do much except hang out by the pool. I attempted to get some color, but I tend to reflect the sun away, so that didn’t really happen.
- I’m grateful that we went food shopping and found some of our favorites on sale. I’ll be posting about cost comparisons here soon, but let’s just say food is more expensive here.
- I’m grateful that R is crazy and wants to work 50 hours a week. Even though he is on target for what we estimated he would be making per month, he wants to make more. He will be taking advantage of going in every other Saturday for a half day to make up for it.
- I’m kind of grateful this week went by so fast. I can’t wait until we go back to my parents for Mother’s day so we can pick up the cats! They’re still very much enjoying lounging around there – one has made the basket her bed.
- I’m grateful that we found a nice patio set to put out on our balcony for $35. We couldn’t really pass that up. We also found a set of 3 bar stools; they were originally $50, but the owner offered them to us for $40. We didn’t even have to ask!
That’s it for me! I hope you all enjoy your weekend!
What are you grateful for this week? Do you have any plans for Mother’s Day yet?